Loss

Pain. Death. Loss. Sin. Pain. Death. Loss. Sin. It never ends. Why? Because we live in a sinful world where there is no end to all the bad. Even in the tiny bubble of Southern Adventist University, these things exist. This school year, especially, has been riddled with pain and loss. We've lost professors, fellow students, friends, mentors, loved ones. We are not immune because we are christians, no matter what people may think. I went through almost 22 years without having to deal with the loss of a loved one or someone I had known. This year alone, there have been three. With each one, there has been a feeling of unease and discomfort. What if that had been me? Would I be ready to meet my Creator when He came back for me? Would my family be at ease because they knew that I was ready when the time came for me? The answer was almost always "No."
It gets you thinking about death and dying. It really waits for no one. It strikes when and where it pleases. It's just Satan's way of proving his dominion over this sinful world. All we can do when we face these situations is pray and keep connected with God. He is the only One who can help us through these times. It's just sad that it takes something drastic like this for me to realize what I"m lacking in my life. It's almost as if, someone is dying just so I can live again. How messed up is that? It's time for me to step up my game and live for myself and in spite of myself. Live for today. Live for God.